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[FanFic] Dear Diary... INTERLUDE

Title: Dear Diary....
Author: npriya
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: Romantic, Angst,Fluff
Length: INTERLUDE
Rating: NC-13, for the time being XD
Disclaimer: Well I Own the story and the characters belong to themselves!!!
Summary: "Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control”
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A/N : Its been ages since i updated this fic. I am not even sure if I am ever going to finish this Fic but i shall try....  comment so i could improve.. love you all....  Its the last weekend of this year.. Hope things will be better from next year.. Hwaiting!!!

Deja Vu - Chapter 21

Title: Deja Vu....
Author: npriya
Pairing: TVXQ, Indian Fans
Genre: Romantic, Angst
Length: 21/?
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Well I Own the story and the characters belong to themselves!!!
Summary: "
This is like deja vu all over again
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So how was it...  ok... do comment on parts i could improve. Thanks!!!!

winglin being a dick

Journal entry 2 :

so here I am  typing away coz the winglin is being an ass again.  I mean there is a limit to everything but i'm not upset. Things like this happening is common in my life.Not that is did not expect this to happen but today is special day... Its XIAHDAY for fuck sake. I had my story in hiatus for months and felt like i should atleast try to update and when i finally decide to post, the website screws big time

AHHHHHH.... serious good lord, i had such an awesome time being to church and stuff but i wont let this stupid thing upset me anymore, i shall finally move that fic here i guesss.... thats the most logic stufff to do i guess. but why i deleted it all in the first place i forgot....

OH MY GOD... I REALISED SOMETHING JUST NOW... I Can't find my diary.... it contains my fiction story outline to the tiniest details...... i'm so sure i brought it with me when i shiftdr but i cannot seem to find it now..... i pray its somewhere here only...

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so i shall go AND post my update here????

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Journal entry 1

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I am going to pour my hurt heart for once in my life.....

Well this is surprisingly ma first entry after so many months? may be years. cos i simply didn't find TIME

I have so many things to share, cos this place is my hide for me survive this crazy world of mine and if there is anyone out there will read how much i feel- both god and bad.

I studied in psychology that you need to get over your worst impulses by finding an outlet otherwise you will be stuck with it for life and it will one day come out in the form much worse than anybody could imagine. Its because of this i started to write fics.. i know everyone does...

I'm no genius to start with, so i'm trying hard to overcome these humanly impulses i have in me, which i believe ever human on this planet has, and bring it out in the form fiction. so far i have only completed 1 oneshot . i started a fiction on winglin in 2009 i think but i still havent been able to complete cos i haven't found closure in my heart about the story as its MY PAST..

Memories are really scary things.. but my memories day after day are becoming to weak and suffocating that my future seems so BLEAK....

This is my confession ......

All my life i have been told things i AM NOT...

- you were supposed to born as a boy not a girl, cos your horoscope and star says so but WHY????
- WHY did i get a sister like you?
- don't tell outside your my sister
- why can't you get the first rank like you friend
- why can't you sing like you sister
- why can't you play the piano like you classmate
- why can't you do this?
- why can't you do that?
- why are you like this...

YOUR USELESS.... WHY ARE YOU EVEN BORN AND BEING A BURDEN.....
 the above mentioned are not even .1 percent of what i hear everyday....

now i'm old... very old by soul but i simply cannot seem to over come the disappointments i hear everyday by my own blood and skin ,.....and this seems to over spil in WORK life as well...

- WHY CAN'T YOU BE LIKE YOU SISTER
- your nothing, your sister is the best....
- see how your sister is?

all these may seem like i have an sister complex but i dont.

she is nothing to me. Never had hugged her. never held hands. all memories of her are always hurtful.

being this pathetic i wonder how sick she much have felt to have someone like me as her sister whom she didnt even feel like holding hands with.

she always held hands of my other cousins and brothers, but never me......

i can't even type cos so many hurtful memories are clogging my throat and eyes are filled with unshed tears...
little love to any soul is really not good cos it impels the person

my sorrow is limitless in this young age... everyday reminded that i am always one step behind to where or how i should be.....

nobody thinks from my shoes . but i have to think every time from their shoes on what to say or not to... what to do or what not to
why is my life so suffocating. its hard to breathe....

whats even more fucking screwd is my future.... MARRIAGE

I have no clue how i'm going to survive in someone elses house when i'm hardly surviving in my own home.
I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN  in myself to marry some one whom i know nothing about. so many questions keep popping my head for which i have answers to .....
what a i going to do ...
God gave up on me when i was born a girl..
parents gave up when i couldn't meet their standards,
No friends to discuss my hurt...
No colleague to understand my hardship,

what did i do in my last life to go through all this shit in this life.....
feel like taking my life but then again i will be named- USELESS because i didn't do anything for the ppl around while i was alive.

Is it some kind of curse where i can't escape no matter what i do....

i really wish that if EVER i have a daughter,  she must never be born with complex i have of my self.... i really  hope I will not be insensitive like my parents and siblings are.

when  will i be what i am supposed to be in the eyes of others?
when will i grow up?
when will i ever manage to reach the social expectations,

when i ask myself........??? its not fair.....

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HEY GUYS.... some one help.. i am dying here. why can i not change me profile pic to some gif file. its nerve wrecking and i need some guidance here as to how to change my profile pic... if some one knows how pls help...thank you!!!!! 

[Fanfic] Dear Diary.... Pg 3

Title: Dear Diary....
Author: npriya
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: Romantic, Angst,Fluff
Length: 3/?
Rating: NC-13, for the time being XD
Disclaimer: Well I Own the story and the characters belong to themselves!!! 
Summary: "Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control”


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A/N: Hey guys... another chapter.. How was it. Its Yoosu moment!! Hope i kept it real as possible. Its my first try so bear with me inappropriateness. Hope you guys are not mad with me for posting it so late.... T_T

[Fanfic] Dear Diary.... Pg 2

Title: Dear Diary....
Author: npriya
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: Romantic, Angst,Fluff
Length: 2/?
Rating: NC-13, for the time being XD
Disclaimer: Well I Own the story and the characters belong to themselves!!! 
Summary: "Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control”
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A/N: Hey guys!!! I'm back with another chapter. Hope everyone enjoys!!!! Yunjae Forever XD

[Fanfic] Dear Diary....

Title: Dear Diary....
Author: npriya
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: Romantic, Angst,Fluff
Rating: NC-13, for the time being XD
Disclaimer: Well i own the story and the characters belong to them selves!!! 
Summary: 
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.
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A/N: hey this is first time writing Yunaje fanfic... Hope its good enough to read... These are my beautiful memories from the past which i have incorporated in the story...  Hope u all like it ... Pls do comment


[FanFic] From Yunho To Jaejoong

Title: From Yunho To Beloved Jaejoong
Author: npriya
Pairing: Yunjae
Genre: Romantic, Little Angst
Rating: NC-13, slight smut  ;)
Summary: Jaejoong Got the Best Present(s) ever from Him….. But What???

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 Hi there everyone.........
 
Hope you all are having an awesome time today...coz its our Leadershii's birthday !!!! ^_^
Since its our Favourite oppa's Bday i wanted to make this video which portraits(according to me) how YunJae will be spending this very day thinking about their situation.. so enjoy...

Song - Woh lamhe from the movie Zeher..

 
 

THANK YOU !!!!!